We talked a lot about class. How I was right outside waiting. She would say over and over "I no need cry." I thought we were getting somewhere! Now I'm pretty aware that Molly doesn't go off easily. I ended up staying with her for VBS. She doesn't make it through a whole Sunday school. I'm aware. Which is why she is in dance.
So that leads us to the not so exciting/more gut wrenching observation night. Adam met us there and we talked up how we were going to watch her. She seemed ok with it. Get in there and she breaks down. She immediately latches onto the teacher and I think let her hand go maybe twice. She didn't do any movements. She didn't relax. She didn't play with the other girls.
It was so sad to see her not feel like she could be her. Not feel comfortable in a place she should. I guess what hurt so much is that I 100% know that feeling. I was exactly the same way as a kid. I never felt easy going and comfortable around other kids. I was in gymnastics for like three weeks and quit because I was just too shy.
I talked to her teacher afterwards. She reassured me that while it didn't seem like it she had come a ways since the start, and that more time would make a difference. I explained my hesitation on taking her out and putting her in Mommy and Me. That is the opposite of what I'm trying to do for her. We can dance around and save $45 at home. I want her to learn to be away from me and feel comfortable making new friends. Luckily she completely agreed and said her daughter was the same way.
I am really praying that this class will bring her out of her shell. I hope it spills over to church and MOPS. Life in general. You never want your child to feel uneasy and afraid to be around people.
Hopefully the next observation week will bring better times and better pictures! For now here are some pictures of Molly clutching onto her teacher for dear life!
|she let go!|